hug
they see you and they embraced you
this wonderful bundle of joy
they hugged you tight
they wouldn’t let go
then they hugged you tighter
and you felt loved like never before
but your skin started to redden and it started to burn
you thought it was love
they hugged you even tighter now and they tell you that they love you
then your bones started to hurt
you still think it was love
they hugged you as tight as they can and you let them
they say that they will never let you go
but now your ribs start to break
you still think it was love
they are confused and they are frustrated
“why doesn’t it feel the same anymore?”
because now you’re broken and in pieces
but you still think it was love
you’re struggling but you didn’t care
you know that this pain is worth it
you tell yourself
“they loved me then and they’ll still love me now”
all your broken pieces and all the shattered bones
but they see you and they tell you that you’re not like before
in your suffering you were angry but you know that they’ll love you the same
you know that they’ll understand
and they did, they picked up the pieces with you
they tried to put you together again
and you still think it was love
then one day came and they got tired of trying to put you together
and they tell you “I can’t hug you anymore because now you’re falling apart”
“I can’t hug you anymore because now you’ve changed”
they tell you that they have to leave you
because things are not the same
they tell you that you’d find another someday
that will hug you as tight as they did
they tell you that this was for the best
and that you must learn to let them go
you must learn to accept that this cannot work
that you cannot be hugged anymore
you cannot be hugged anymore so they must find another
and now that they have someone to hug again
they tell you that if you ever did love them before
you will be happy for them.
and you still think that it was love.
gunthor x
21.12.2020